Letting Go...

In my first post of 2011, I stated it would be a change for me in many ways. I want to be a happier, healthier, and more loving person in 2011. However, one thing I have to learn is to let go of the past. You may ask what do you mean by the past. Recently, I dealt with some personal issues that left me feeling saddened and lonely. It made me feel like my best was not good enough anymore and that what I thought would be one day has turned to never.

It is hard to process through information that leaves your heart heavy and yearning for something without direction. One side of me spent time reflecting on my life up to this point; while, the other focused on the search for knowledge. This type of physical and emotional experience has made me not only a more reflective but determined individual.

It was from the dark place that I discovered that my passion and finesse for life has never left me nor has my friends or family. The love and support to know that I am surrounded by those who cares make me feel 100% better than ever. However, have I learned to let go? In some ways, yes I have figured it out. Although the "letting go" experience is constantly occurring, the steps are baby steps.

It is hard to wake up and just think about the dead weight that used to surrounded my mind, body, and soul. As I discovered this week, one song has inspired me to realize that life gets better and that I love who I am and who I have become. As one of the lyrics says, "I will dry those eyes" and today I can dry my eyes and position myself with self-esteem. There is no day but today and must seize the moments that leave me "without words."

If you are interested in the songs and lyrics for this post. Check them out:

I Won't Let Go-Rascal Flatts

It’s like a storm
That cuts a path
It’s breaks your will
It feels like that

You think your lost
But your not lost on your own
Your not alone
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
If you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go

It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it’s dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we’re too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
And you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight

And I won't let you fall
Don’t be afraid to fall
I’m right here to catch you
I wont let you down
It wont get you down
Your gonna make it
Yea I know you can make it

Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
And you can’t cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go
Oh I’m gonna hold you
And I won't let go
Wont let you go
No I won't

Thank you for reading and look forward to another blog in the next few days.

2011: A New Beginning...

For 23 years, I lived the the light of those around me. I have done what everyone expected of me and the societal norms that apparently I am to live by. However, I am uncovering that I need to look beyond the expectations of others and these supposed norms. I need to find "me" who I truly am as an individual and person.

Katy Perry stated it best, "you are original and cannot be replace." I know my professional goals and objectives continue to be steadfast and secure that I want to work with college age students through their developmental process. Obviously, life is not a piece of cake but it is the what Miley Cyrus calls the "climb" that is important to each student's journey.

As I journey through the next few months, I will be evaluating and re-evaluating each relationship that I have with individuals as well as how can I improve myself. In 2011, I have chose to lose weight. It was seeing my family struggling through health issues and diabetes that I realized that my health cannot be my demise. Although my plan is vague at this point, I am learning more about fitness and trying to discover healthier eating habits.

Also in 2011, I want to ensure I have a strong relationship with myself. As many of you may know, I have been single for quite some time and need to discover what I love about myself to share it with the world. I am learning to seize opportunities and the day.

After watching the movie, "Letters to God," I have been inspired by one song- "You Give Me Hope."

I have listed the lyrics below for you to reflect over as well. Who knows what the results of 2011 will be but I am not wasting time. :) Thank you for your support and continuing to read my blog.

"YOU GIVE ME HOPE" by Between the Trees

I look at your smiling face,
Your so weak, yet you have such strength,
You take a glance around this place,
You make the best of everything

You give me hope, in spite of everything,
You show me love, even with so much pain
So I'll take this life and live like I was given another try

We laugh, we cry
Sometimes we're broken and we don't know why,
I'm tired and I lose my way,
you help me find faith, oOo

You give me hope, in spite of everything,
You show me love, even with so much pain

So I'll take this life and live like I was given another try
Just give me another try

You give me hope, in spite of everything,
You show me love, even with so much pain
So I'll take this life and live like I was given another try

You give me hope, in spite of everything,
You show me love, even with so much pain
So I'll take this life and live like I was given another try
Just give me another try
Just give me another try